You mean more than everything to me..

It is kind of cheesy... But then again, I like cheese. :)

I buried it deep

within myself.

Because the thought 

of pulling you in, 

through it all,

feels like sin.

I swallow my tears,

gulp down my fears,

for I know I have no choice,

And I will have to

face it

Head on.

I grit my teeth,

and carry on.

Hide the failure 

through my eyes.

Or when I cease to talk

and dwell in, on negative thoughts.

Often I see myself

hungry for love.

Or even a mere nod

Or a kiss on the forehead.

With a different kind of assurity

that everything 

will be fine.

When the night closes down 

and my mistakes bury me

I feel suffocated

with no place to go

And that is when,

I think of you

so desperately.

You say you don't

mind helping...

But it makes me 

feel guilty,

for sticking onto you

like a parasite. 

You have no idea 

how it feels,

when in deep sea

the warmth of your hug

makes it all okay,

in one go.

That caring tone 

in your voice

is something I always

yearn for,

no matter how much I show

I can survive,

without it, I feel empty.

I try hard to hide it all

from the eyes of the world

try to keep it

away from you...

But you always

seem to hit bullseye.

How do you do it,

is a wonder to me.

But I guess

without you sweetheart, 

I would be no more than

a lifeless being

morose and helpless, in darkness.

I try to divert my feelings

and I can't help but realize

how much you mean to me.

I try my best to go on

but ultimately,

I can't seem to go on without you.

I don't know how to 

get it across but,

here's something,

I would like you to know-

Thank you...for everything

you have ever done...

Because it means more than

everything to me.

:)